This past week has been extremely hard. Family, church, work, and friends I felt like I was being pulled in every direction.
I've discovered a fear I didn't realize I had.
Marriage.
Why? I truly don't think anyone would want to settle down, I think I'm too much to handle, too quirky, and just all around different.
Also. I have a fear of becoming my father. It's who I've been reared by, it would make sense.
My last fear, is having children, and having me or my husband die and leave the family alone like my family. I don't want my family to go through that. It's not fair.
When my dad looked at me tonight and told me to grow up...I lost it.
I've helped pay the bills since I was 15 years old. I grew up a long time ago. I said goodbye to my childhood for the sake of my family.
